I am a perfectionist in recovery.
Some days are okay and I manage to do things that are ‘good enough’ without all the self-torture. Other days are a battle with procrastination, imposter-syndrome, and a core feeling of not being good enough (never, ever, no matter what I do).
Part of my recovery process is publishing my unfinished, still in process, nowhere near perfect blogs. It’s either
A) take a deep breath and push through the discomfort of pressing the ‘publish’ button now,
or B) keep it in draft form for all eternity.
That blog you wanted to read? It will be done soon – or at least some more of it will.
You can visit it regularly if you like and watch it hatch and grow. It might be a frustrating egg for a while. Or go through an ugly duckling stage. You can share in its’ growing pains and the messy birth process.
I am optimistic that I will continue on my recovery journey and live to see the day when I can just write a blog like I imagine ‘normal’ folk do. I will have an idea, write a draft, work on it till it’s good enough and then, and only then, press the publish button and share it with you.
In the meantime, thank you for your patience.